it’s ultimate….i am not going to UPSI…not because i do not want to,but I have to….
it has always been my dream to go abroad further my studies..no doubt…and when it’s there in front of me…..i was about to say yes to it….the chance is very near to you..one year to do masters abroad sounds damn terrific but the 7 year contract forced me to think further…..
when i told my dad,he said that i need to go through this matter throughly with farihan….and i did….being a very sweet and supportive fiance…he said that he would love to see me chasing my dreams and he does not want to be a show stopper..thanx to that….when i brought up the 7 year contract he was still fine untill i bombarded him with many many questions regarding “our future’….
– are you willing to travel back forth from tanjung malim to putrajaya???
– how r we gonna raise kids if by any chance we have children ??
-r u going to settle down with me in tanjung malim??
after having a very very deep thinking on my own, i choose not to be selfish..i choose to think 4 us both,4 our future family…and of course i need to think about my parents…what if something hapen to them prior to my absence???nauzubillah
deep down in my heart…sgt sedih….tp aku redha…aku pasrah…like what I told farihan…
“sangat penting utk sy mengejar cita-cita….depan mata saya…tp hukum agama mengatakan terpenting dalam hidup saya selepas ini ialah segala keutamaan suami…”…i just pray hard that mebi someday in the future God restored something better 4 me….and the best 4 us…insya allah…..